Costume prep.
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kotaotanI've just spent the last three minutes picking an afro. I had this afro wig for my Bob Ross costume and it was really flat from being in the bag, so last night I bought an afro pick. The look the woman at Wal-Mart gave me was priceless. I now have a fully picked and stylin' 'fro ready for tonight. All I need is my brush and the blue shirt I bought. I'm also working on making a pallet out of card board and color swashes from photoshop. Go team Me!!
I've been depressed this week. It's a new kind of depression though. It's not like the kind I've had for my whole life. It wasn't a self-pity sort of thing so much as it was a confused and lost sort of thing. I think I'm sort of over it now, but I'll feel better when I can talk about it some more next week. I just feel like I don't know what I'm doing any more. What's the point in doing the web comic thing? Once again, the point is I'm an artist. The other point is that I love the "Errant Apprentice" concept. I did come to a decision though. I don't need to be working on Geebo or Munki's Tales right now. I don't feel them right now and that's a dangerous thing. It had gotten to the point that I was dreading working on comics. Now I feel some better. I feel a bit more focused and like I can keep going for a bit.
I feel lonely. Not in necessarily in the girlfriend sense (but that's there too), but I'm just in a lonely place. I don't see too many people right now and the ones I do see are on a limited basis. I see Warren once a week, Karen once every week or two and Paul about on the same schedule. I kind of miss having a larger circle of friends. I'm sort of looking forward to the party tonight just so I can see some people. There are other things bothering me, but nothing that needs to be said I suppose.
That's it for now. More later.
I've been depressed this week. It's a new kind of depression though. It's not like the kind I've had for my whole life. It wasn't a self-pity sort of thing so much as it was a confused and lost sort of thing. I think I'm sort of over it now, but I'll feel better when I can talk about it some more next week. I just feel like I don't know what I'm doing any more. What's the point in doing the web comic thing? Once again, the point is I'm an artist. The other point is that I love the "Errant Apprentice" concept. I did come to a decision though. I don't need to be working on Geebo or Munki's Tales right now. I don't feel them right now and that's a dangerous thing. It had gotten to the point that I was dreading working on comics. Now I feel some better. I feel a bit more focused and like I can keep going for a bit.
I feel lonely. Not in necessarily in the girlfriend sense (but that's there too), but I'm just in a lonely place. I don't see too many people right now and the ones I do see are on a limited basis. I see Warren once a week, Karen once every week or two and Paul about on the same schedule. I kind of miss having a larger circle of friends. I'm sort of looking forward to the party tonight just so I can see some people. There are other things bothering me, but nothing that needs to be said I suppose.
That's it for now. More later.
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Date: 2006-10-30 11:48 am (UTC)I am sorry that are depressed. The old cliche of "it will get better" is actually quite true. Everyone has down days. There is nothing wrong with you for feeling that way.
Email me if you need to talk.
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Date: 2006-10-31 03:30 am (UTC)Don't worry about me though. Byron (my therapist) calls these sorts of things growing pains since I'm changing so much lately. I really do appreciate your concern though. It means a lot. Hopefully I'll see you and Brian sooner or later. :)
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Date: 2006-10-31 06:31 pm (UTC)BTW, I think of you and Mike every time I pass the Roses on Hardy Street. Is that a good thing or bad thing!? Brian and I have stayed far from there. No worries. Would like to eat at the Italian place across the street though.