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So here I sit freezing my butt off. It's 5:20 and I'm all ready cold. I have to go out tonight and by something else for my secret Santa this year since Paul made a really good suggestion.
Other than that I went to Rose's today. I don't think I'm going back for a while. It sucks on my soul and a couple of people up there don't seem terribly happy to see me coming. That being said, oh well.
Mostly today I've worked on Sweatshop Studios related stuff. I've got a preliminary site redesign going that might work depending on how comicpress handles it. I'm really excited about that, by the way. [livejournal.com profile] madscott will be changing my site over to Comicpress at some point. I feel bad sometimes having to rely on others to do my site work now but the technology and tools have moved faaaaar beyond my meager html skills. I still have trouble with frames to be honest.
I finished tomorrow's page of Errant Apprentice today. I'm happy with the backgrounds for the most part, but I'm REALLY happy about how Father Takewell is turning out as a character. Once the background fell into place he really came together.
The only other thing I need to try to do is get together with [livejournal.com profile] realmwalker1 at some point. Hopefully before Christmas. I'll have to see when my days off are next week though. Okay, enough from me. More later.
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Funny I should call this update by this name. Back when Barry ran a web page the post popular section was the Random Thoughts page that had quotes from him and us, his friends. It’s funny because Barry plays a bit of a role in some of these thoughts.

Last weekend Barry and Jessica (Paul’s girlfriend) gave me tips and ideas about my personal style. Afterwards they felt bad about it, but there was no real need to. It gave me some stuff to think about. I was actually flattered that someone was putting that much thought into my look and my prospects of getting a girlfriend or what have you. I tried to find a stylist today just for kicks to get my hair done a bit differently. The problem was they all smelt of beer and liquor. I finally found a decent barber and got my hair cut. That was at Northpark Mall. I walked around after that just looking and soaking in the humanity. It don’t get to do that much and I did enjoy it for the most part. I watched the booth girls make choices of who to hawk their moisturizers to. Mostly attractive people who looked like they’d buy into it with vanity. Imagine my shock to be singled out by them. Always the prettiest of them too! I don’t want to sound vain, but really I’m still getting used to the idea that I’m not a CHUD.

I went to Rose’s as well. I needed a new strand of Christmas lights. I saw Greg, I saw the other stock guys. I spoke with some people. I’m glad I came in there. I realize now just how glad I am to be gone. The place was sheer chaos. It was a wreck and no one was doing anything to help customers. It’s just one of those moments where you realize just what kind of impact you had on a place when you leave and come back and you see it all gone. I was a good manager after all. I just couldn’t handle the stress.

So I need to get back on the EA book. I was making progress but working in retail, even shoes, during the holidays is a pain. I don’t have quite as much time as I’d like. I also haven’t been sleeping enough so I’ve got this whole “zombie” thinkg kickin’.

Well, the rest of the plans for today consist of Warren coming over after he gets off work and we’ll do something. I still need to call the store and see when I work tomorrow. I’m sure I work Sunday, but I’ll get my hours for that on Saturday.

That’s about it for now. Hopefully I’ll feel awake enough to update again soon instead of waiting this long again.
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Watch me draw! You may need to turn your volume up since I was having some mic issues. Enjoy!
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Okay. I'm back from work and waiting for the floor crew to call so I can go back and let them out. I'm going into a bit more detail on something that's bothering me.

Some of my friends are doing something that bothers me. Well, a couple of things, but one is a recent development. It bothers me a lot and I don't know what to do. I spent a few years pretending it didn't bother me around some people, but I don't feel like doing it any more. I don't want to see them do this thing but I want to spend time with my friends when I can. I have no answers.

I won't be able to update the comic this Monday. The floor crew ate up too much time and I wouldn't have had the three to four hours I needed anyway so I'll be updating Tuesday. I'm not happy about that.

Austin has come back into my life rather suddenly. I'm rather happy about this. He's a lot closer to the guy I knew way back when for the first time in a long time. He's changed to be sure, but it's one of those core changes you can deal with more than drugged out changes.

It's nearly ten and the friggin' floor crew STILL hasn't called. I know the floor was pretty dirty, but man! I want to get undressed and go to bed. I'm so friggin' tired of the store eating my time like this. I used to have a life of some form. Now I just have a stress hole that keeps me tired and angry all the damned time. When I first took the ASM possition it was sort of fun. Even with Ruth gone it was fun. Now it's just work and annoyance.

Well, that's enough for now. I think I'll try and keep this updated a little more frequently (so he says).
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You ever have one of those morning where you wake up and sincerely wish you were dead? Yeah. Me too. There are things bothering me that if I say anything I'm going to piss off or alienate a large group of people. Work is only getting worse. Today isn't going to be any better since I have to deal with the aftermath of yesterday and I'm still worried about whether I got that job or not. I'm looking at everything in my life and wondering why in the fuck I even bother. Is this stupid comic going to actually go anywhere or is it just going to end up like everything else I seem to try and die a miserable and pointless death? I wake up in the morning it seems with no other purpose than to do things I either don't want to do or do out of habit. I feel like my prayers are bouncing off the ceiling, which is odd because they used to go somewhere. What am I to do? No idea. Why am I posting this? I'm going to be honest here. It's a cry for help. I'm drowning in my own life right now and I have no idea what to do any more. Anyway. Off to work soon, so until next time. . .
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Been a while. My promotion went through and my time has been eaten away by the job. This has been my first weekend off in quite some time so I've spent a lot of it lying around. Last night I did got to Fenian's to see SPOT and Albert play with Scott, Aimee, Mike, and Barry. Paul and Lydia did eventually show up and Paul and I sent text messages back and forth for a bit from across the table. Silliness, I know.
This week has been a further adjustment week. I'm settling into the manager thing well, but I'm worried about the cost on my soul as it were. The pay is good, but when do I spend it? Also, I'm trying to find a way to deal with the stress and so far it isn't working well. I've had trouble sleeping and had quite a few headaches. I see Byron next Friday (which is my next day off) so I'll have plenty to delve into there.
I have an urge to write but I don't have anything specific in my. I know I'd like to write some short horror stories but I don't know about what.

I'm tired of rain. It seems like it's been raining for weeks and my yard is full of mushrooms. I hate the damned things. I don't know why, but I do. I hate the look of them, I hate their sheer numbers and I hate them being in my yard.

That's it. I'm taking a nap.
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Believe it or not I haven't had a hell of a lot to complain about in the last few months.
Don't get me wrong, I could, but I won't. My life has been surprisingly happy. Errant Apprentice is rising in the ranks on Drunk Duck, my art has gotten better, my writting has gotten better and I'm exploring new hobbies that get me out of the house.
First, I love taking drives some where to take pictures. These are from my last few trips and I think they're all right.
Secondly, and is going to hate me for this, I've begun GeoCaching. On the larger expeditions we've been pretty successful at finding the little buggers, but by myself I'm not doing so well. There are two withing three miles from my house hidden by the same guy and I can't find either of them. One is at Terry Rd. park and the other is at the Kroger. Curse you Bone1977. Curse you.

I downloaded the latest They Might Be Giants album from Itunes. It's called "The Else" and the jury is still out on it. It's prduced by the Dust Bros. and while it's good I'm still kind of waiting for it to grow on me. Ah well.

That's about it for now. I go sleep-sleep now.
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I'm getting frustrated having several blog sites. I have another one HERE that is updated far more frequently than this one. I'll keep updating this one occasionally, but the new one is updated every day or so with neat thoughts and pictures as I draw them.
Other than that not much is going on. My birthday passed with absolutely no fanfare. My dad forgot my B-day again and gave me $100 out of guilt. Byron (my therapist) got me a $20 gift card at Borders. I got My Tank Is Fight! by Zack Parsons of Something Awful. Decent book, but I think it may be a little too technical for me to completely enjoy. I also got the first collection of Ultimate Spiderman. That I could get into.
I'm on vacation this week. I've spent most of my time NOT neglecting the house. I've cleaned, straightened, rearranged, and thrown things away that are too old to keep. Pretty productive week so far. I've also watched the first season of the Kids in the Hall and Star Trek the Motion Picture. I've got a few other things I need to work on, one for money no less, and I'm not mentioning them because then I'll never get them done.
Enough for now. More later.
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Working for print is a huge pain in my sphincter. I've had to rescan every page so far, redo the layout of each page to fit the print template and then color. I'm three pages into a forty to fifty page book. It's taking me a week to do two pages ON TOP of the current updates. I'm thinking EA book one will be available for christmas. Blarg.

I haven't done anything this weekend except work on EA. I'm damn nigh sick of it. I'll be taking it easy this week some, but I can't stop. The book may be the only source of income I EVER get off of all of this. Kinda sad really.

An associate of mine that I recently met on Drunk Duck named Mr. Riot has gotten an offer to have his work published. I'm very happy for him.
HPK has gotten Cosmic Dash published in an anthology. I'm very happy for him.

I'm very angry with myself right now. I don't know what it is about my stuff that has web cartoonists liking it and the general public turning a blind eye, but I'm doing it and I'm angry about it. I don't know what to do to be quite honest. All I can write is all I can write. I can't imagine it's the art that's hurting it.
See, I've tried working with a writer before and it just never works. They always seem to be terribly protective of their material and always become belligerent. I lose artistic freedom.

I guess I'm just terribly frustrated right now. . .
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So, here's the deal. I'd like to publish Errant Apprentice through an online publisher. It would contain the first two issues in full color (redone for issue two) and a bonus story written by me and drawn by a guest artist.
The question is (of course) would you be interested in purchasing said book? I'll be cross posting this on my website blog, in several forums, and on Comicspace so please drop me a line or comment here and let me know if there's any interest. If there's enough buzz I can get to work on rescanning and coloring as soon as possible.
Thanks for your time.

Projects.

Feb. 26th, 2007 10:00 pm
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Currently on my plate.

- Multi Artist Exchange entry for Feb. Round B:
Done. Finished it yesterday.

- Page three of The Errant Apprentice:
Half drawn and half inked. I need a reference from the last page so I can finish.

- Fan art for HPK:
Drawn and in my scanner for Wednesday.

Those are the pressing ones.

HONKEY!!

Feb. 10th, 2007 10:51 am
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You know, in all my life I've never actually been called a "honkey" before.
Until yesterday that is. . .
I was doing a carry out for a customer and on my way back in I saw a sweet old lady's bag of dog food had ripped open in her back seat. She said that the cashier had ripped the bag open putting it back in her buggy. I knew this was a lie because she'd been in front of me in line while carrying the TV out for the other lady. I decided to be nice. I told her to hang on for a second and I'd get something to clean it out with.
A bout a minute later I was there with a dustpan and garbage can and Mike was coming to help me with it. She was sitting in her car looking angry.
I said "Ma'am? I'm sure if you went back in and asked for another bag I could explain what happend and you could get a replacement with no problem".
She said "I've been sick for for two weeks! I ain't gettin' outta this goddamned car, HONKEY!!!!!"
Mike got out there about that time. I told him to take over. I went and got another bag of dog food, threw it in her back seat and sent her on her way.
I was angry at first since I seem to get called racial slurs almost every week, but then I realized it was the first time I'd ever been called that. I reintroduced myself to my black co-workers yesterday as "Kevin Hayman, Professional Honkey".
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You know how you'll be boppin' along and then all of a sudden you get that one bit of news that makes you feel bad?
Last night I learned that Colin Moulding has no interest in music any more which leaves Andy Partridge on his own doing solo projects. XTC, my favorite band, is now officially in the past tense. They released a couple of tracks as mp3's that gave me some vague hope that they'd have a new album sometime in the next five to ten years (it IS XTC after all), but apparently those were just sort of last gasps. Sod it, I'm all cross now. >:(
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Holidays are weird. It's like you can fall off the face of the earth and no one even thinks about it. Not even you!
Quick run down I guess:

We took the road trip up the Natchez Trace and took pictures. We got to Hurricane Creek and turned around. The trip up was four or five hours. The trip back was about 45 minutes. I got some decent photos and some really crappy ones. Leggette gave me a tripod for Christmas so I'll take that next time and hopefully more will turn out.

Christmas was okay. I found myself missing my mom a lot this year. As for my haul, I got Brain Age for the DS, Ultimate Spider-man and Shadow of the Colossus for the PS2, a "Prefectionist" shirt and lastly (from my dad, or at least his money) an Eton E-10 shortwave radio with a butt load of accessories and "Oranges and Lemons" and "Nonsuch" by XTC. Over all, not too shabby.

Comics continue unabated. Scott over at Nightgig got my comics up on a much better back end. We had been using QUACT to automate the updates but the drop down was basic and you had to FTP everything. Now we're using iStrip. The drop down can have strip titles which is good if you happen to have 939 comics like Kota's World and it's all done through a webshell. We're still not done modding the site, but I like where this is going. I'm also considering publishing issues one and two of Errant Apprentice, but I'm having problems with the rescans since I have to convert to vector for size issues and I lose all of my lighter lines toward the bottom. I'm sure it will sort itself out.

Work. I honestly don't give a shit what's happening at the store. I know I'm going to have to work a lot of overtime for inventory, but it doesn't matter. All I know is that I refuse to let the store get the better of me any more and I've been pretty damned happy since then.

Byron has decided I only need to see him once very three weeks to a month. I asked why and he said I was far more stable than I was when we started. Heck, I'm more stable than I was two weeks ago.

I've changed a lot lately. I feel more confident. My blood sugar seems to be under control and I'm twenty five pounds lighter after a month. I have a chin now. I can see my feet. I'm stronger. I've had two women flirt with me in the last three days. I have NO idea how to handle this, but I'm not worried for once. In fact, I'm having a ball.

I bought a new coat this weekend. My leather jacket looks like it was run over by a tank and I got bleach all over my hoody so I went to Target with Mike and Warren. I got a new leather jacket. It's a medium. Let me stress that. MEDIUM. I've never worn a medium ANYTHING.

Last night I ran Call of Cthulhu for the first time in months. Paul, Warren and Mike were the willing victims and from what I could tell and from what they said, they had a ball. I'm pretty happy about that since for once it's a story of my own design. Don't get me wrong, it's definitely made up of story elements from H.P. Lovecraft, but it's unique for sure. I'll go into more detail once the adventure ends.

That's about it. I've got some people I need to get back in touch with ([livejournal.com profile] realmwalker1, I'm lookin' at you here) and that's about it. More as it happens.

Today.

Dec. 16th, 2006 10:06 pm
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So today myself, Warren, Mike, and Paul loaded in Warren's car and got on the Natchez Trace. Destination Unknown. We got to Hurricane Creek and turned around, but we were exploring and taking pictures for about five hours or so. I'll be setting up a gallery somewhere soon to share, but that's later. Right now I'm exhausted. I haven't eaten well today and I'm a bit worried about my personal finances what with a doctor's visit coming up. In fact, I may call and cancel my Tuesday appointment and do it the week after Christmas just so I can afford it. Only problem is I have no diabetic testing supplies. Maybe I can make it another week or so.
On the diabetic front, when I can eat right and exercise (most of the time actually) my blood sugar is around 100 to 110. Pretty danged good actually.

Back to this road trip thing for a minute. I had fun. We want to make it a regular thing actually. My idea is to get different people to fill in the fourth spot sometimes. There are a couple of people I can think of off hand, but I suppose that remains to be seen. It really is a wonderful experience. Seeing the sun set over the reservoir and a few stars start to emerge is an experience not to be missed. Neither is the Cypress Swamp.
Anyway. Enough for now. More later.

Wow.

Dec. 14th, 2006 08:41 pm
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Tuesday I woke up expecting a normal day. It wasn't. I found that my comic The Errant Apprentice had been chosen as the featured comic on Drunk Duck. Wow. I'll be in the feature box for five days.
That afternoon I got home and found that his had been made a news feature on the main page of my internet home-away-from-home, NightGig. Again, wow. I just heard from the head of Nightgig, JT, that they're talking about me again on the Gigcast podcast. Triple wow.
I don't really have anything else to say. I'm surprised, I'm happy, I'm stunned. I guess it is true that if you do what you love the rest will eventually follow.
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Once again I'm sick, but you knew that all ready. I missed work yesterday and I actually got sent home today because I felt bad. How's that? SENT HOME FROM WORK. Not often that that happens. I'm hoping I feel well enough tomorrow to go in. Then again, maybe I don't. Another day of rest (minus my therapy appointment) would do me some good.
I'm annoyed with myself right now. I'm doing Errant Apprentice but I feel the need to do something else. The problem is I can't stay motivated on any one thing for very long. My focus is nonexistant at the moment. It may be due in part to the sickness, but I've had this feeling for a little while now.
I'm also feeling down for various other reasons, but that's crap for Byron t hear and put up with. After all, I'm paying him to do it. Not much else happening at the moment so I'll close for now. More later.

Sick.

Nov. 27th, 2006 09:19 pm
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I don't know what the hell I have, but I don't like it. My sinuses are draining and clogged all at once, my throat is raw and it makes me sound like Leonard Cohen. I'd absolutely love to take a day or so off work and try to recover a bit but with a visit from home office tomorrow I'm just going to have to suck it up and deal.
I finished the cover for issue two of Errant Apprentice. I changed the title from "Wizards of the Coast" to "Mystic Lipstick". It makes only slightly less sense and fits what's going on just as well. Besides, it fits the song title thing I've got going on for the first three issues or so.
Work is stressful as usual. I'm just happy the visit is over after tomorrow. After that is inventory in late January though. Any way. More when I'm not about to fall asleep from o.d.ing on Nyquil.
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It's cold. The heater is on, but for some reason it never reaches into my room. I dare say my desk is the coldest spot in the house. I'm especially observant of this since I've been waking up at six so I can be at work by seven. It's really starting to wear on me. Top it off with getting off late for various reasons the last two nights and you've got an exhausted Kev.
I had the blood work done at the doctors today and it's confirmed. I'm diabetic. Hooray. My blood sugar is high, but not too high so all it's calling for is a change in my diet right now. Eventually it will require some form of medication, but for now I'm good. They gave me a free blood tester though and it's pretty cool. I only have to check my sugar once a week though, so that also good since I have this thing about needles. The diet is going to be a bit bland, but it's actually not too far off of my current eating habits. I need to change my lunch meat and switch to almost all baked goods, but other than that it shouldn't be to hard. What I'm really going to miss is carbonation. I've been trying to ween myself from them anyway but I've had a relapse the last few weeks.
The holidays are here. The intercom at work started playing Christmas music Monday. At least this time we're getting some Christmas pop and not all old 50's chestnuts like the last two or three years. I still predict a homicidal rampage on my part by the time December ends. I'll be working Thanksgiving as usual, but I'll be getting off work at one so that's a plus. I don't really have any plans though. I'll hang here with Hayman for a while and then I suppose I'll gorge myself on Mystery Science Theater if nothing else.
We've never really celebrated Thanksgiving in my family. We always just saved up and did a big dinner on Christmas Eve instead. It may sound weird, but X-Mas Eve has always been far more important to me than the day itself. It's the absolute last time you can be excited and stuff. The next day it's all just defused.
Well, I suppose that's all I've got. More later. . .
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Wednesday I finished my entry for the "Nightgig of the Living Dead" book for next years MegaCon. Hurray! Now all I have to worry about is my own schedule! This means Monday I can start back on The Errant Apprentice, which is my pride and joy. I've missed it. Especially since I'm a page or two away from finishing this issue and will finally start issue two.

Work continues. I may be getting my promotion sooner than later. It all depends on when Leggette actually gets around to setting things in motion. It looks like I'll be making $35,000 a year with good insurance and two weeks of vacation a year. While I'm terrified of screwing up and all the tough stuff that will be coming I REALLY want the CA$H.
Thursday night I attended the latter half of the ribbon cutting ceremony of Gulf Pines. Not directly, but I was going to visit Karen and it happened to be on the same night. I ran into Blake and Stew while there. It was cool seeing them. I also met Thai (Tyrone). The fact that we've never met is a bit surprising since he also knows Scott, Brian, and Paul. He's a pretty cool guy and I'm glad to have met him. Over all I had fun after an initial short burst of awkwardness. Very glad to have gone.

I have this thing that I do. I'll see someone and try to fill in the back story on them mentally. I noticed this after five months of subconsciously trying to do so with a woman who live up the street from me. Every morning she is at the end of her driveway when I pass by. She's a black lady wearing black tights, a black and white striped shirt, the tiniest denim jacket I've ever seen, and these white fur boots. Her hair is cut very short with only a small mass of curls on top. Sometimes she has wrap around sun glasses on, but other than that she always wears the same outfit. The reason she comes to my attention is because she smoking and waiting for the school bus. As the bus drives by she starts screaming obscenities at it. All I every understand is "muh-fuh" which I'm assuming means "mother fucker". I still don't know what to make of it. Why's she do it? Why doesn't she change clothes? The world demands answeres!!!

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